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Monday, July 22, 2024
Sunday, July 21, 2024
The Monster
De lacey,
Take back your eyes,
You miss too much.
The monster runs loose,
You could have stopped him had you only seen.
You cry wolf again and still no one comes,
Yet the fire still burns.
Peter isn’t here to fend off this one with his pop gun.
The smell of fresh cut lilacs get replaced
With that of morning napalm
Lacking only the war to surround it.
The minds jagged teeth never bite straight.
Did you hit another false bottom
Or has the free-fall finally stooped your heart?
The breadcrumbs were long ago eaten by crows,
So i spend most days walking in circles
Looking for jacob’s ladder;
Instead i follow in dante’s footsteps,
Down is always easier than up.
Pick up the blade of tomorrow
Sever the edge between before and after,
Escape the abiding place,
Open the cage and let the doves fly free.
The best things in life can’t be taken,
Only given.
Where do you go once the albatross drops off
But the doors remain closed;
You're not locked out,
Instead you’re locked in.
Am i drinking from an empty well
Or was the water always for someone else cup.
The end came before the beginning,
The crash before the sunday drive;
You never woo the wall
It just keeps listening
Waiting for you to lose your voice.
How many more days
Running from ghosts
And chasing phantoms,
How many more nights
Of looking into the abyss,
For questions there are no answers to.
No rest until you accept
You never stood beneath william tells apple,
The arrow missed its mark,
The bell never rang,
No doc brown to fix the clock tower
Its arms are broken now.
I don’t like chasing unicorns;
Hermes can have his shoes back
They no longer fit.
The dream strangles me now,
Leaves me lifeless on the floor
Waiting for the next chapter to begin.
I need someone
Who doesn’t want to live off narcan,
Who wants to put all the eggs in one basket,
To have the cake and eat it to.
What i want
Only comes from the big bets
Because if you only risk
What you’re willing to loose
Then you never win
More than you were willing to risk.
Wednesday, July 10, 2024
Gassed Up
Thoughts of you fill my head
From the moment I wake
Until it eventually finds the pillow.
You once said I gassed you up,
You fill my sky with light.
I was once told I come across as to intense
I was also told I was too desperate.
Perhaps that’s what frightened you away.
Your words are sunshine on a wilted garden,
Water in the midst of the desert,
A kind hand in a cruel world.
I mistook your kindness for interest.
I lose myself in the dream
Watch reality pass me by.
I’d spend the rest of my days chasing that fire in your eyes;
Drown myself in its warmth.
Teach myself to be a seamstress
Spin that heat into a life
Built on the unbreakable foundation
The corner stone of the undying.
Maybe I’m weird,
I know compared to everyone I have met
They don’t hold the same view,
I won’t be waking up next to someone
I wouldn’t want to spend the day with.
I’ve done that before and did not like it.
It feels like it should be more than just a handshake.
I know with every fiber of my being
Your someone I would want to spend my days with.
Maybe age has made me blind
To many books an idiot
But, I would see you in the darkest night
Know your direction from the depth of any ocean.
I hate that the baggage of my life acts like a wall between us,
I hunt every day for a crack or an opening where I could slip out or you could slip in.
In the end I always say to much
Or not enough.
Sunday, July 7, 2024
ShitShow/Another log in the toilet of HOPE and FEAR
The spinning wheel moves beneath the eyes,
Rolling again,
Pat Sajak left for the evening,
I’m not smart enough to put it together
Without Vanna to spin the letters for me.
Fade into the audience,
Clap along with the barking seals
As you watch the show from the outside.
Once the biting begins its all you feel
Even when its stopped.
The phantom limb never leaves completely;
It catches you off guard,
Like the popup restaurant
Invading your street serving the finest in insect cuisine.
A puzzle wrapped in the enigma or just a door that doesn’t want to be opened…
Yesterday blends into tomorrow,
Passing over today
Leaving only the bitter taste of regret.
The uneaten stands in the way of any hope of dessert.
I need a new wall to beat my head against.
Spin relentlessly like a leaf on the wind;
When life tries to drown you it rewards you
With only trying harder its next time around.
It saves the shit shake for you next walk past.
Do load stones grow tired,
Long to be cut free
Float down into the murky depths.
I’ve never gotten it right,
I choose the wrong door each time
Can’t find my way home until I’m shown.
So many turns as the frog
That you slowly become the scorpion
Waiting at the river for a ride.
Your tricks fall flat,
I see the strings
I’ve read the playbill
I know what comes next.
Surrender to the churn,
Break me down and spit me out,
Return to the Vomitorium.
I grow tired of always chasing sunbeams,
They escape between your fingers.
I need to stop playing with twenty-five sent words.
Why do I keep feeding this festering weakness;
It pushes me like a beggar
Empty bowl in my hands;
Forever reaching out
With no one reaching back.
If I could pluck you from my mind,
Dump you in the fire,
Let you meet the hard smack of the hammer,
Mold your shape into what I need
Not what you want.
I look everywhere for a third way,
Where I won’t need to cut the futures throat
With the bones of the past.
Walking the path in reverse
Won’t lead you out,
Moving forward wont lead you out,
Sitting still won’t lead you out.
Might as well spend another day trying to outrun my shadow.
Do I turn your stomach the same way I turn my own?
At some point this slow procession must come to an end.
Seasons come and seasons go
But when the day ends
Were you the leaf, or
Were you the wind.